hey leadership, not in a good mood right now I'm actually pissed, upset , crying and more. I honestly just want to say one thing which is I hate AR! I honestly tried to finish it but I couldn't even though it was the easiest and that lisses me off so now I have an F in homeroom and mr ing won't let us take anymore test which makes me even more upset so now I have an F for homeroom! So now my dad is pissed off at me and lately I've been feeling like a failure a stupid a$$ and just all of the above! I honestly have very little confident left and it's sad how little it is and it hurts bc I know my worth but I don't feel it or see it I feel like sh** and ugh im so pissed like I tried to hard so I wouldn't have any bad grades by the weekend and I didn't but homeroom is an F !!! And ugh I just HATE MYSELF! I feel like a stupid a$$ !!!! I'll just go die and cry in a hole now like that's how I feel about this one things! I legit am done with this school year everyone makes me feel stupid irrelevant and so many more!! I just can't contain my hurt inside and I'm just crying it all out rn! But I not hate this week and want to finish this blog now in my frustration. Well now I'll talk about my week! I honestly loved this week it was going pretty good and I was trying so hard to just stay positive and happy bc we should be happy and it worked it really did!! Until after school on Friday and mr ing said were done with AR I can't contain how stupid I feel but anyways that my week I don't even care how it went it's all flushed away because I was to dumb to not read even though I'm busy have practice everyday and when I don't I just want to rest it doesn't matter I should just suck it up and work my a$$ off right just work work!
Well my highlight is that I got to talk to mr song ! And I have an okay week. Now it's my lowlights that's right not really any highlights bc I feel to crappy to know. My first and only lowlight is AR I didn't finish and I broke apart after. All that's been happening lately and I just can't stand feeling so down so there ya go! My highlight and lowlight
The lesson I learned is bad days will happen and it's okay to break down and cry and let all the frustration out ! You may feel down but believe you're worth the world yeah this blog is very emo and this part isn't that much but just have hope because I believe things can always get better.
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