a good week but had to end bad😭

hey leadership, not in a good mood right now I'm actually pissed, upset , crying and more. I honestly just want to say one thing which is I hate AR! I honestly tried to finish it but I couldn't even though it was the easiest and that lisses me off so now I have an F in homeroom and mr ing won't let us take anymore test which makes me even more upset so now I have an F for homeroom! So now my dad is pissed off at me and lately I've been feeling like a failure a stupid a$$ and just all of the above! I honestly have very little confident left and it's sad how little it is and it hurts bc I know my worth but I don't feel it or see it I feel like sh** and ugh im so pissed like I tried to hard so I wouldn't have any bad grades by the weekend and I didn't but homeroom is an F !!! And ugh I just HATE MYSELF! I feel like a stupid a$$ !!!! I'll just go die and cry in a hole now like that's how I feel about this one things! I legit am done with this school year everyone makes me feel stupid irrelevant and so many more!! I just can't contain my hurt inside and I'm just crying it all out rn! But I not hate this week and want to finish this blog now in my frustration. Well now I'll talk about my week! I honestly loved this week it was going pretty good and I was trying so hard to just stay positive and happy bc we should be happy and it worked it really did!! Until after school on Friday and mr ing said were done with AR I can't contain how stupid I feel but anyways that my week I don't even care how it went it's all flushed away because I was to dumb to not read even though I'm busy have practice everyday and when I don't I just want to rest it doesn't matter I should just suck it up and work my a$$ off right just work work!

Well my highlight is that I got to talk to mr song ! And I have an okay week. Now it's my lowlights that's right not really any highlights bc I feel to crappy to know. My first and only lowlight is AR I didn't finish and I broke apart after. All that's been happening lately and I just can't stand feeling so down so there ya go! My highlight and lowlight 

The lesson I learned is bad days will happen and it's okay to break down and cry and let all the frustration out ! You may feel down but believe you're worth the world yeah this blog is very emo and this part isn't that much but just have hope because I believe things can always get better. 

4/23 bloggggsss

    Hey leadership so this week was really an ok week and it was a kind of week where I liked it but I didn't like it or I just was super tired and I didn't want to go to school and I was just over everything. Like I was so tired but I had to go to school and work and stuff but really I wanted to be in bed sleeping and it was so hard to not go to sleep because we so many test and projects and Cornell notes and I'm just over it and I can't wait for summer to just sleep in and relax. But really this week was bleh and I just wanted to do nothing practically. Well anyways I actually enjoyed this week even though i couldn't work Music It was fine though because I was super tired because we had mostly evens this week and you should know by now that I don't really enjoy evens periods so that was a big lowlight for this week. But So since I was on probation😭😩😒 I couldn't work this whole week and I was super upset and I felt like a bad group leader because I'm suppose to set an example. 

  Now with my highlights and lowlights. First with my highlights so my first highlight is that odds were the periods that were pretty good this week so that made me happy. Another highlight is that there is only 20 somethings more days left of school!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like I want school to be over already!!!!!!!! But yeah I think those were all my highlights. Now with my lowlights. My first lowlight is that I couldnt work at all   this week because of avid and avid is just irritating and I do not like it atm   But yeah. Another lowlight is that I was super tired but couldn't sleep and I had to do test and projects and I am just over it all. Another lowlight is that I have so much going on that I am so overwhelmed that I just want to cry all the time and stay in bed. But I can't. So that sucks. But that's about it those were all my highlight and lowlights. 

   So the lesson I learned this week is even though I'm over this year and even though this quarter is crazy and we have lots of test and work. We only have 7 more days of school left and I can make it I just have to keep on working my hardest and I just have to keep on working with my full strength and to just not slack and be happy even though I am so tired I should be happy and joyful and alive! But yeahhhhh  Well that's it bye leadership. 

Orientation second year round

WELL ONE ORIENTATION DOWN 2 more to go! I honestly didn't think we did that bad! But I know we still have a couple things we can improve on. Honestly I was nervous for this years orientation. Let me tell you why. Last year I was just a dance and had to dance like 2 songs I didn't have to speak or do anything but dance. And honestly that's easy! But this year I was the narrator and honestly I'm honored and happy I got picked! But it's a lot of responsibility but it's so much fun! I was really nervous I was going to forgot or do something wrong! But it went pretty good I can do better and I will because I still have two more times! But honestly it was fun! With doing the tour and getting to meet some 6th graders to changing really fast to getting ready for fashion show and to not mess up on anything! Haha I honesty had a blast during orientation and yeah it was a lot of practice and time spent on it but honestly for me it was worth it! Because in the end you become proud of yourself and the things you've accomplished and did! I'm so glad j got to be the narrator! And I'm so happy it didn't go super bad! I'm proud of you leadership! But we still have two more to go!! SO LETS GO AND KILL IT!!

ANOTHA ONE😂💯

HEY LEADERSHIP! WELL ITS OUR SECOND WEEK BACK AND IT WAS CRAZIER THAN THE FIRST! WITH GETTING READY FOR ORIENTATION AND TEST AND WORK AND WORK AND WORK WORK WORK HAHA. well we're back at school and man I'm so exhausted trying comprehend this quarter lol but man this quarter has been going pretty cherreh! Honestly I'm loving the business I love having things to do! Like it's perfect for me! Like my schedule goes together well and I have time to do everything I have to. But this week was just work work and more work which is honestly boring haha. But mr Damo wasn't here for two days which was pretty cherreh and honestly j just had a great week. I mean practicing for orientation wasn't bad till it was Thursday and Friday because it was just like we did it too much! But it's okay. But also because now we're collecting money so it's goi g to be even more busy and ugh I'm just not ready to count money. But I'm excited for the rest of this quarter because we're going to be graduating then going to high school! I'm super excited for highschool and I can't wait!! 

Now my highlights and lowlight. TBH I have more highlights than lowlights and this hasn't happened in forever! So I'll start with my highlights. My first highlight is that this week has been chill and nothing majorly wrong happened yet so that's cherreh. Another highlight is that I have awesome friends and they make school/ classes fun and I'm grateful for them even though I can be a jerk. And my last highlight is this week went great and I just loved it. Oh and I almost forgot to mention I went to the UH volleyball game and I fell in love lol. Now with my lowlights. My first lowlight is that now since we're back at school I gotta wake up early and be at school on time and ugh now I'm back on a schedule. But that's about it this week was really great and I'm glad how it turned out. 

Well now is my lesson of the week and TBH it's going to be simple and short. BE HAPPY AND THANKFUL! FOR EVERYTHING! I busyness the bad time and the good times. No matter what happens just be thankful because we're beyond blessed more than we can realized but trust me nothing can describe how blessed were!

BACK TO SCHOOL😴

WELCOME BACK STUDENTS GET READY BECAUSE NOW WELL HAVE TEST AND PROJECTS AND JUST A BUNCH OF WORK FOR YOU TO DO. I HOPE YOU ENJOY! I honestly was kind of excited to come back to school. Because I missed all my friends but I'm honestly not excited for all the work ahead this quarter. I'm honestly tired just thinking about it. Well this week was pretty boring but also chill. Gladly it was chill. But all week we worked on orientation and I'm nervous because it's coming soon and I have to memorize the script ASAP! But also we have math SBAC which is a big deal for me and I really want to do good and I hope that I can ! But I'll just work my hardest and it'll be okay. But we started passing out form on Thursday and so far it's been chill and okay  but I know soon it'll start getting busy and we don't even know. But yeah it's been okay and not that bad of a week and I actually enjoyed the week back to school. But that's how my week has been and I'm glad it was chill

Now my highlights and lowlight. TBH I have more highlights than lowlights and this hasn't happened in forever! So I'll start with my highlights. My first highlight is that this week has been chill and nothing majorly wrong happened yet so that's cherreh. Another highlight is that I have awesome friends and they make school/ classes fun and I'm grateful for them even though I can be a jerk. Now with my lowlights. My first lowlight is that now since we're back at school I gotta wake up early and be at school on time and ugh now I'm back on a schedule. But that's about it this week was really great and I'm glad how it turned out. 

Now with my lesson of the week. This weeks lesson is simple really. Don't let negativity control your mind. Let positivity spread and show love! Honestly I want all that excited coming back to school. But being happy and not letting the little things get to me helped. So think and speed positivity.